Insights Grow

I was very lucky to have some significant insights when I was first introduced to the three principles. I’m talking life changing, huge impact stuff! At the time I felt that I had 100% realized the truth about things like forgiveness and freedom from past events and traumas, because the shift in my perspective on reality post insight was so huge. However, since then I have come to realize that, yes, I did gain significant insights but in fact there is no end to how deep one’s understanding can go, and all insights will continue to unfold and deepen as time goes by.

The most significant, life changing insight that I was successfully pointed towards by my friend and mentor Carol Boroughs was that the past does not exist. At the time of my introduction to the principles I was working flat out to change my life for the better and I was firmly sold on the concept that everything that was apparently ‘not working’ in my life had to be related to negative beliefs developed as the result of traumatic past experiences or as beliefs inherited from the adults in my life as I grew up under their influence. Indeed, much of present-day psychology and spiritual healing is based on these concepts.

However, once you begin to understand the power of NOW, you begin to see that only now exists and so the past does not exist. In fact, it only exists as memory and, as Sydney Banks explained ‘Memory is a thought carried through time’. Once I had this insight, my reality was forever changed for the better and I truly felt that I had transcended all past trauma in my life instantaneously!

It certainly is true that I was able to free myself from massive loads of personal baggage once I saw that only I, innocently kept the pain alive in my memory. It’s not that you forget the past only that you see it holds no power over you.

We come into this world perfect. There is no such thing as a baby who needs therapy. This is our natural state, as we grow up and interact with the world, we learn to think that we are otherwise. So, one of the most wonderful things learning about the three principles does for us is to help us truly see that our natural state is one of well-being and health.

Of course, one must have the insight to understand, reading this without insight is only an intellectual process but at least it opens the mind to the possibility of freedom and well-being as our natural state.

Since learning about the three principles I left my job of fourteen years to start my own business and discovered a talent for poetry and I have now self-published two books with a third on the way. I never would have guessed that such things would be possible for me or that such changes would be so huge and immediate.

However, it has not been all roses and easy, life does not stop being challenging. It is more that it is easier to find happiness because of an increased ability to understand hardships when they occur.

I never thought I would discover that I still held on to the past when only recently it hit me that I still hold onto the past with some issues. I had easily been able to identify that past events from my childhood, for example, no longer exist and the freedom and happiness gained from this realization was immeasurable. However, I had failed to realize that every past event, even from a millisecond ago, also no longer exists. So, I have had some financial struggles lately with business problems and have not been able to pay my mortgage on time. I caught myself feeling woeful for this problem which, despite successfully increasing my income, has continued to be an issue for me. It pulled me down into a lower state of consciousness where I was remembering how long I have struggled with finances despite working hard to sort it all out. Despair and hopelessness began to creep into my psyche and consequently a downward spiral of negativity and the innocent energizing of painful thoughts was engaged.

I suddenly realized that I was holding on to the past still. A very recent past to be sure and in fact over an ongoing issue. Never the less I was innocently energizing negative thinking over this whole issue, not realizing that these struggles are, in fact, a past event that I was still living in.

So, my insight, which I had originally thought to be a 100% realization, deepened. Every moment is a new now, a clean sheet filled with unlimited possibility. This does not mean I have worked it all out, but I have one more piece of the puzzle in place. A clearer picture is emerging and there is one less way I am going to innocently sabotage myself by energizing negative, dis-empowered thinking. At least, when I remember!

This has been another thing it’s taken a while for me to accept. Although with insight comes deep, life changing realization, we don’t always remember what we have learned. It’s as though we have woken up but then we drift back to sleep. However, once an insight has been gained, there is no going back to being so deeply asleep again. One only drifts out of focus, the truth has been revealed and so we will, inevitably, find our way back to it.

In the meantime, I can only feel immeasurably, grateful for what I have seen so far. This gratitude feels good and acts like a magnet for positive thoughts and consequent feelings which inevitably helps to create a more positive and beautiful life. I won’t always feel this gratitude, I will fall into lower states of consciousness, but I know it’s only my thoughts and ultimately, I will return to what I know because it cannot be taken away from me!

It can be difficult to remain patient as we wait for insights to unfold because we forget that we are already where we need to be, and we already know everything we need to know. It turns out even the most awakened among us forget sometimes, that’s part of being human. Thank goodness we are all so much more than that!

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